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Have I mentioned that we are not patient people? The waiting was interminable!! But, we had a daughter to take of and lives to lead....while waiting.
I must admit that I spent countless hours on the computer during these months. After Cassie went to bed at night and during her naps I was perusing adoption sites, bulletin boards...searching for our next angel baby. I did engage in a few email chats with young women, but nothing panned out and I can't remember details anymore. At one point we looked into adopting from Guatemala, but quickly nixed that idea. The financial cost was too great, and we would have to be away from home for too long. It wasn't a good match for our family.
Back to the waiting. Our life was busy, our life was good. Our daughter kept us busy and our minds occupied, she was our saving grace during these months.
August rolled around and our annual camping trip was upon us. Every year we go camping with our best friends (family that you choose). I had to pry myself away from the computer and our voice mail. Off we went for a week of fun, dirt, smores, laughter, and good times. It was a wonderful week. I could almost forget my intense desire for another baby, almost.
Adopting a baby is akin to delving into the unknown. You know you will eventually bring home a new life. You don't know any of the details. When you are pregnant you are given a due date. You know that sometime around this date you will give birth. In adoption you are not given a "due date". You have absolutely no idea when your baby will arrive. You also don't know where he will be born, to whom he will be born to....no details, completely unknown. This is the aspect of adoption that is the hardest to accept, but you don't have a choice. Accept it you must if you want to proceed.
We wanted to proceed. We accepted it and continued on the journey. We tried our best to stay on the right path in our journey, to not get lost or confused during the curves and twists. We knew how our journey would end....we did not know the route it would take.
Our camping trip came to an end and homeward bound we were....dirty and happy. As soon as we got home and started the laundry I checked our email and found this -
"I am 8 weeks pregnant and want to place my baby up for adoption. Please call me.......L"
to be continued...
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
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