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Tuesday, March 3, 2009

The Next Journey

Yesterday I registered my daughter for high school. I then came home and began to have a nervous breakdown, just a mini one.

I know she will be fine. I am looking forward to her starting this new chapter in her life. I am excited for her.

I am scared to death. I worry about her. I want to protect her. I don't want her to get hurt.

She has been at the same small private school for 9 years. She will be going to the local public high school where she will have 400 (more or less) children in her freshman class. She has been with the same 35 children for the past 9 years. This will be a huge change.

Intellectually I know she will be fine. I know that it will be a HUGE adjustment for her, but once she survives the first few months, she will be fine. She has a good head on her shoulders, has strong morals, likes herself, and respects herself.

Emotionally, as a mom, I want to protect her from all the mean people in the world. I don't want her to ever get her feelings hurt. I don't want her to get her heart broken. I want to put her in a plastic bubble and keep her innocence intact.

Realistically I know this is not possible. I know that she needs to hurt, in order to grow. She needs to experience life in order to live. Her hurts and broken hearts will help create the woman she is becoming. I know this, but I still don't like it.

She, on the other hand, is very excited about this new venture. Nervous? Yes, she will admit to that, but her excitement overrides her nervousness.

"I can't wait to meet new people and make a fresh start." This is what she told us at the dinner table tonight. The past 9 years has not been easy for her. She is ready for a new start and we are ready to watch her bloom and flourish, hurts and all.


Jan said...

Yeah, for Cassie. She'll do fine. (I had 1000 kids in my class in High School! Long Beach Poly, Home of Scholars and Champions.)

DysFUNctional Mom said...

That would have to be tough! I wish her the best.

ChrisB said...

It's a moms job to worry, but I'm sure she will do just fine after the initial settling in period. Good luck to her and you.

Heather said...

How exciting for Cassie! (And definitely frightening for you!) I went to a large high school (400 kids in my GRADE) and said the same thing about going off to college - I wanted a fresh start and an opportunity to meet new people - to not be placed in the "box" I was placed in in high school. Good luck Cassie!!!

Tera said...

wow, what a milestone. good for cassie, looking at it the way she is. big hugs to mom...and good luck!

Sherryl said...

Hi Cuz
Yes it is scary! Cassie has a good head on her shoulders and I'm glad to hear she is excited and nervous. It is the first step to growing up. I understand how hard that is as I just left my grown up daughter a couple of days ago. At least she is looking forward and not backward... You will be fine!!! remember that as you take each breath...LOL

Anonymous said...

That's a big change. I'm glad she's excited about it.

lisaschaos said...

Oh it is so hard to send them to high school. I'm sure she'll be fine but it will be an adjustment. :)

Karmyn R said...

I am scared for her too!! It is good she has you to come home to!

Pamela said...

I don't envy her... and yet I do.

karisma said...

Alison! As a homeschool mama I can only scream quietly over here! Going to a public school is so different from a private school! I hope yours are so much better than ours! Having said that, Zak lasted a whole six days in the public system over here before declaring it ridiculous! Good luck Caz, I hope it works out but if not, mama, please let her go back to private or homeschool!!!!!!

Just sayin'

Dr.John said...

I hope Cassie does well. She is now out in the real world. The public school has good and bad kids. It has nice and not very nice kids. It is just like the real world. In some sense it is ridiculous but the choice is to hide or to be your own person wherever you are.

Anonymous said...

Congratualtions to you all! One thing that might make the transition a little easier is for her to get involved in one or two organizations - band (pretty big one usually) or a language club or drama or one of the million other clubs - then she'll have a smaller group of people she'll come to know and they'll have similar interests in common.

I wouldn't bother with the groups that are mostly popularity or looks based - they won't serve her well past high school anyway. :)

Cassie is a special girl and she'll have a ball in school and she has a lot to offer her school mates in her time there as well. It will be over in the blink of an eye and she'll be heading off for the next big adventure. :D

Karen in SC

Jennifer said...

It's going to be great, but it will be hard on both of you at first!! I went through something similar a few years back and it has exceeded my wildest expectations!! my kids are doing great and yours will too!!

Mother Goose said...

i'm so glad she is excited about HS. It is daunting. I have two in HS. My daughter wasn't 14 yet when school started her freshmen year.
What a great attitude she has. I know the urge to protect but it's so much more important to be there for her and show her coping skillz when the hurts and offenses come.

She is a great young woman already and you and your husband are the direct reason for that.

Cheffie-Mom said...

I have been in your shoes. I have a son in high school and daughter, who is a college graduate. It's tough at first, especially for MOM. (: Blessings to you and your family.

Rayne said...

Your words sound as if they were pulled right from my heart.